Nobody in my real life truly understands. I feel incapable of being able to think about anything without worry or dreading something. I really don't like living this way. When I tried to speak with someone in my life, they just said not to think like that, and I'm too depressing to talk to. It would be nice to, but it never stops. Since opening up about it never works out in my life, all there is left to do is just pretend and act like everything is okay.