You seem to be on a good amount of meds. When I was not well I was on like 9 but now I take 4.

Your mental state (Set) and the situation you're in (Setting) plays a large role in everything. Those two things you need to change. I try to make it simple like that for myself (Just two things) instead of thinking of it like a complete ball of madness that is reality.

So you could go to a safe place (Which you do often) and do the things that you think will help that has worked before but also switch it up by 1% every time because it happens again and again. Eventually, you'll be better and better at it. So don't give up. I know you suffer from dissociation and I believe that's like the worst possible thing.. Along with psychosis, anxiety, depression.

It's a mess. But I'm here to listen if you want to talk...

I think I might go to sleep soon. Gonna take atenolol, seroquel and melatonin rn..