Said a prayer for you Open Eyes and sending postive vibrations your way.

You have been dealing with and reflecting on your PTSD and all the dysfunction you have been caught up in for a long time. You are more prepared than you realize. You will break free of this (if not literally then you will get to the point you can detach and leave the worst of this all behind). You are nervous because you are ready for battle. The time has come. You are prepared because you are a good person and deserve the best life has to offer. I believe in karma. Not saying I am talking about revenge only that you are ready to do what must be done to stand up for yourself and then move on. You don't deserve the crap you have been dealing with. Once you leave it, it will make room for better things in your life. You deserve good things. You are a wonderful person who has helped me and many others so much. Good luck, prayers, etc.