Feeling very bad today. I keep tormenting myself about all the things I should have done during the years to change the situation.
If I had been able to get a proper job, a home (I live with my parents) we could have lived together.
I could have talked to her family to make them stop being so toxic. But she didn't want me to, I could have lost her trust.
Now I'll drag myself to the gym and then maybe I'll feel better.