OMG, it was a hard day. My lawyer negotiated the list of things we both wanted. Actually, my older brother did not want anything even though he got all the things on his list. He told me he just wanted to help ME as he knows how really mean my sister can be. My brother turned out to be a beautiful soul despite all the abuse he suffered as a child that I had to witness that traumatized me constantly.

One of the things I wanted was to be able to finally go into my parent's home, that was my home and still had some of my things there. Well, my sister insisted on having a police officer there, can you imagine? She stopped me in the doorway and told me not bring my handbag in. Like I was going to steal something? No, that is what SHE chooses to do herself. She stold thousands of dollars from my parents. She took a lot of money from my mother and went to the bank and withdrew a lot of cash withdrawls and started doing that as soon as she got POA and made it a point to have my mother's bank account made into a joint bank account. What the kicker is she did not want to present an accounting except for the last year of my parent's lives. The judge said "no, I want and accounting from when you got the POA in March of 2012. So when she presented that accounting she HAD to show all those cash withdrawls and she decided to say I took that money CAN YOU IMAGINE? I did not even know what bank my mother's money was in until I saw that listed in the accounting. I never even know there was a bank/debit card either and there is NO WAY I went in and took my mother to the bank all those times. Not only that, but my sister's daughter had my mother's Discover card and was charging things for herself on it. Who spends $575. on makeup? What is it gold makeup? She never even provided the bills for the Discover card.

So after I got to keep my handbag I went into my parents house. I just wanted to have time alone to sit and GRIEVE. My sister as in the case when both my parents were dying INVADED THAT. My older brother KNEW what I wanted, he knew I wanted my time alone to sit and grieve. He ended up going outside and telling the police office my sister hired to be there to please keep my sister from invading me. She still needed to invade and I ended up getting very badly triggered to the point where I was crying and shaking, full of that little child part of me. Please keep in mind how much power a four year old has over a mere infant. And that four year old HATES the attention this infant is getting. I have had flashbacks, they were horrible yet it's not like I can talk about what is happening because I am so very little. I can't even believe I experience this challenge, that she can trigger this to happen in me.

My brother was AMAZING, he stepped in and hugged me and calmed me down.

It was so hard because my sister was rushing me to go around and put my stickers on things. I was overwhelmed with how she had all their things on tables. So many things that I never even thought of. I am very respectful so I knew my parents had things, but they were THEIR THINGS and I never intruded. I never went through their drawers or things, never went in my mother's pocketbook.

I found my wedding dress and my mother was SO thoughtful and respectful and had gotten one of those clear plastic hanging bags and she put everything nicely in it. I just cried and her clothes were there and I just put my face in them and cried. I was very close with my mother, we were buddies and loved each other.

My sister kept appearing and hovering, she is SO DAMN COLD. She always has to be SUPERIOR and is obsessively controlling.

I am exhausted, it was very overwhelming and I tried to sleep but I can't sleep and I have the chills. It was traumatizing for me to experience that very negative human being when I just wanted my own time to privately grieve. She consistently invades that.

It's so upsetting, so hard. Yet, I will say that I am so proud of my older brother, he was kind WARM loving and respectful and he definitely noticed how mean, controlling, condescending, cold, bossy my sister is today. Truth is, everyone noticed it, even the judge and my lawyer definitely sees it.

I will have to face this again when I go back to get the things I taged, and I am sure she will once again make sure the police is there. Ironically, even the police officer could see what a mean jerk she is.