Jill,
I know what it is like to just want to stay home and be by yourself. I agree that it is not in your best interest. When we are isolated it seems the anxiety gets worse as time passes.
You should not see yourself as a loser...
Anxiety is something that people who do not experience it cannot understand. They just do not realise what it can do to a person and how difficult it can be.

I'm sorry I can't be of more help to you. I just wanted to offer my support and let you know we care.