thx for the replies
went to the hosp today, lots of tests..
Just came home. He's asleep.
Think we all are worn out now
I know the way they treat cancer has gotten much better over the last years etc
but what if he doesnt.. what if it doesnt work for him
And chemotherapy.. they said they want to start chemotherapy as soon as possible... that aint an easy thing to go trough either...
I wish I could take this away for him
I would trade places with him if I could
I mean... what's next... when are things going our way for a change... It's just... welll... life SUCKS

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