I feel differently at different times. Sometimes I mourn. Like when my Father left. Even though rationally I know he is coming back it doesn't feel that way. And I grieve. Feel... Alone and forgotten.

Othertimes I feel angry. That I'm more invested in him than he is in me. That I spend so much time thinking about him and he can't spend that much time thinking about me.

Othertimes I'm kinda grateful for the break truth be told. Keen to focus on my work.

Othertimes I'm aware that I kind of emotionally withdraw from him so that his absence won't affect me so much.

I think there are a variety of (equally legtimate) responses that different people (or even the same person) can have. Sometimes it can be hard to figure out what you feel... But othertimes it can be hard to figure out what you feel because you think you should be feeling something and you worry you might not be...

I think that how I feel depends a little on the nature of the transference at that particular point in time. And about how stressed I'm feeling (how much support I need).