More than one night of no sleep or sleeping all day is probably the biggest. But, there are lots more. My mind noticeably races when manic and I (usually) quickly start wanting to take showers, many many long showers. I get too obsessed with someone, famous or not, and get incredibly attached to usually one song. I stop wanting to eat and drink TONS of water. I dance and sing a lot. My house gets very clean and organized and I get irritated if that is interrupted. I am a little *****y if messed with sometimes. Oftentimes though, I still don’t notice before my husband. He even says he can spot mania “in my eyes”.
Depression... like I said sleeping, but also uncontrollable crying and hopelessness and often quickly sui thinking.
I usually become psychotic pretty quickly if I pass hypomania or mild depression.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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