I am so sorry you are struggling, @
raging vortex. I really don't know you, but I can tell you from the bottom of my heart that I do care about you. Sending you positive vibes and prayers that tomorrow will bring a better day for you.
I myself, am dealing with some voices intermittently today, after my big psychotic flare last week. Because I have a lot of paranoia, my voices frighten me. I am just practicing breathing to try to get through this and hoping the new meds help. Maybe tomorrow will be better.