And btw, I know some people wonder what I'm doing nowadays. I get messages from FR, SP, and some others, and then family and other friends. But I legit just dont have time to really stay on the phone and talk anymore for long periods of time. I see some messages, some I dont, but it seems like everyone messages me when I'm so busy, like if I'm working or doing errands, or whatever.

I cant say I like this life much. I mean I love what I'm doing, but I dont have a social life anymore. I miss being able to call friends or get on snap for hours. Or here. It's easier here tho, because I can write what I need and close tapatalk when I'm busy, and then come back later.

But honestly, I feel awful. I cant really communicate with anyone anymore. It's weird, because I wanted this life like even 5 years ago. I had wished I was so busy I didnt need to contact anyone. And now it's very lonely. I'm either at work now, doing hobbies (sort of. They are part of me building my career), doing errands, or using what little free time I have to sleep or just watch tv.

So I'm sorry to everyone.