It's my mother's 75th birthday and we're having a big party for her. We've invited her friends too.

I'm seeing my pdoc in av few days and all I can think about is how to answer her when she asks how I'm feeling... If I'm satisfied with how I feel now.

I'm not sleeping well so that's a problem. But I'm also not hypomanic. And I feel ok and not ok at the same time. But I feel better in several ways even though not better in other ways.

So am I satisfied? Partially, as is always the case. But can I live with things the way they are? Is it possible to do better than this? Tough questions.

I slept for 4 hours last night. I got up and worked on the book and a new article.