I am not okay. I've even had some suicidal thoughts. I really need some help.

I did go to a therapist about 3 weeks ago, but got a bad one....then finally got another one, that I had my first appointment with just this Tuesday. But he's just a therapist, doesn't do meds. He was going to call my OB/GYN doc and explain my situation so she could prescribe the meds.

Well, my therapist is on vacation as of last night, until Monday morning. I called my OB's office and she's all booked up for appointments for today. We don't really have a family doctor - just moved here, all we really have is my daughter's pediatrician and my OB.

My question is...would it help any to try and get some meds like RIGHT NOW??

Where should I go?

Or is it just going to take a month for them to work anyways??

I'm on the waiting list fo a psychiatrist but she can't get me in until May.

I still don't really know if I'm just depressed or if I could possibly be bipolar. That's why I've been somewhat hesitant to get back on meds (it's been 2 years since I was in any treatment). And that's why I was hoping to get to someone who really knows mental illness...not just a regular doctor.

I'm really not okay. I'm still sane enough to know that I'm not okay...but I can tell I'm in that downward spiral again.

What should I do??