I am sitting hear listening to music, in a self-induced paralysis. I am struggling to become unstuck and clean up this place, and pay a couple bills. None of this is hard. I have been this way all my life. However, there are other times where this does not happen to me. That is when I get stuff done. Music has recently become important to me. A bit of classical, and a lot of jazz and blues. I cannot forget here classic rock. I spent more money, and signed up to a music streaming service. I can always cancel when I get good sense. I have been feeling a depressed. I am ramping back up my Lamotragine. I am finding that this med is actually helping. I stopped talking to that lady that I mention earlier. The drama was just making me feel more depressed.