I believe i am insane and bipolar and suicidal and homicidal among other things i am currently not on meds i was on stuff that made me unable to function i felt totally locked inside myself i hated everyone and myself i still do very much i dont know why my wife puts up with me everyone else gave up on me its just a matter of time before she does too i guess it all started when
i didnt sociallize at all there was always work to do i got enough financial aid to get the heck out and as far away as possible i was always good at working on cars and made it a career until my past haunts me so much i cant be in a place where theres more than a few people i cant go to grocery with my wife if someone looks at me
think i need help really badly