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What is an IRL? Sorry ignorance is bliss. Thanks guys for your comments. Today I got the release from my ortho doc to go to the gym... the thing I fear is that with my extreme calorie restriction and now my freedom to work out that this cycle will fully engulf any since of normalcy I may have left. However, for some strange reason, today it doesn''t seem to bother me. I am just happy that I have recovered from my accident and am able to resume working out. My eating cycle has routine for now....Is that sick?

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Not sick at all and, from what you have been saying, it appears to make perfect sense. Your ability to exercise makes you feel better about yourself because it puts you back in control.

With a trusted captain back at the helm, your ship can now chart it's course using logic and good judgement.

WIth the panic and desperation over, maybe now is the time to try to answer the "why?" part of all of this?