When will this journey end?
To wake up and the first thing you are concerned about is why is there pain still there?

This week I have 2 appointments one after another indifferent days. ( Tuesday afternoon, Wednesday morning)
Wish I was 20 years older when it wouldn't matter and I would have 20 years more experience.

But for now, I'm getting dragged along this road, still.
Not travelling but being dragged.

The one thing I have learnt is that people are still scared by what they see and think of you. Be it real or imagined they judge.

All they see is Male.... A bad thing in their eyes.

Nobody sees the hurt person that is crippled inside and out. Their loss.
I don't have time to figure out their logic.

If you do something for yourself you are branded selfish. (be it good or bad)

Prostate cancer kills more than just your prostate. It kills.

Having to count the cost of 2 mental health assessments in 6 months just to see if I'm dealing with everything.
Guess what...im not.

I will be stuffed if this is life from here on.
One day someone is going to cry and say"why didn't he talk about it!"

Guess what he is and nobody cares.

Until I'm scared again
See ya