With depression I get very fatigued and have a hard time getting out of bed, doing basic tasks like washing the dishes. Things just pile up and I can't seem to stay on top of life. I feel hopeless sometimes, and will have negative, ruminating thoughts. Sometimes I am very sad and other times more apathetic. I withdraw and don't want to be social at all.
The rest I am still figuring out. I am very confused by what I am experiencing and what's bad anxiety, verses moods, verses emotional regulation. I can tell something is off when I have more intrusive thoughts, feel agitated, irritable, quick to anger, and full of anxiety and jitteriness. I also notice that I have more sensory issues. I notice things are just off with my thinking like gears are out of place. I don't always have good insight at the time, though. It's like a different version of myself that cannot seem to recall how I feel otherwise and so I don't really realize it all the time. It just feels so real.