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Originally Posted by Miss Laura
Hey guys, sorry I have been AWAL for a month. I really wasn't doing too good. The depression was really tough and I was massively struggling. I eventually got my meds albeit the wrong dosage. I'm only on 10mg x 4 times a day of Propanol. They make me so sleepy. I'm feeling after a month and a half I'm more optimistic.
I still have the letters I wrote to my family incase I attempted suicide. I can't get rid of them even though everyone wants them gone.
I was seeing my CPN and community worker weekly. I'm now seeing my CPN fortnightly. So I'm improving. Everyone says I'm brighter.
I think going away at the start of November helped I was in a lodge with a hot tub on the west coast of Scotland. It was gorgeous chilly and dark.
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I’m glad your feeling better , it sounds like a wonderful get away.
As for your letters , seriously get rid of them, keeping them is only removing an obstacle that might be one that makes you stop and think if/when your in a crisis.
Maybe instead write not a good bye letter but write a letter purely of love and tell everyone exactly how much you love them and why .. absolutely nothing like a good bye .. more like your so wonderful doing X we should go do X to celebrate or maybe ask for someone to help you learn something.
Okay then you can do one of two things. You can keep them they are ALL positive and there is nothing about you not being in there life. OR you can actually give the letters to your loved ones.
We as people generally don’t really see how much we can mean to another person.
Years ago my Husband wrote me a letter, we were flat broke... He told me all the reasons he loved me.. I always knew he loved me but for him to go into such details some where big things but also many were just the little things, he said he absolutely adores me when I’m struggling trying to take a stupid DVD out of the damn case and then remember how to use 3 different remotes to get it to actually work, apparently I tap my foot and make a face while my tongue is half out and I’m biting it. Freaking crazy right???
But it showed me just how much he sees in me.
Of all the gifts he has ever given me that is the best ever.
Just a thought
