I feel like there is something wrong with me... no matter how much he hurts me I cannot stay away and be 'tough'. I have no boundaries and I get destroyed by him over and over..

I left a long time ago.. I haven't been able to date, all men look for is sex. He has been calling to see the kids lately... after discussion, today we kissed. He told me he loved me and we had sex. He left immediately after without saying a word. I call him tonight and he ignores me until he calls me back on video chat. I was crying, he berated me and laughed with all of his friends that we slept together today and that I'm a stupid c***. I didnt know he was with all his friends drinking..

I feel destroyed and worthless. I feel embarrassed. He just laughed and called me names while I continued to cry.

I blocked him again. I just dont know why I had to go through it again. It hurts so much I have physical pain radiating through my body. I'm so so ashamed. I can't stop crying. I dont know what to do with myself