Hope, I am not trying to be mean. I have heard of people experiencing similar things. Could it be that the obsession with this psychiatrist is interfering with your therapy? I think you mentioned that the anxiety is coming from your jealousy of him being married. And it would be so difficult to work with him while being jealous. I am saying this so that you can take a hard look (maybe even admit to) at what is going on.

Again, I am not saying this to be mean. It would be good to work this out. So, you can actually focus on what you are getting help for.