I am about to turn 30 and have been consciously battling with CPTSD (due to childhood) for about 5 years. I have a degree but have never progressed beyond entry level admin. A relationship broke down about 1 and half years ago down in part because of my CPTSD and I find it extremely difficult to social and make new friends. I am currently physically limited and I am recovering from an injury set to take about 8 months and I find connecting with people extremly hard in general.

Nothing much has changed for me in terms of progress or triggers or building a sense of stability. I trip myself up a lot and self sabtoge. I just can't see this changing and the older i get the more inept i feel. the more immature I seem and the increasingly behind i become. I don't really social much and barely experience life. I just can't do another decade of this, its a life that is such a waste and pointless. I just can't see myself recovering.