I am in my black hole place again. I think the November-December festival time is a trigger for me, calling up some PTSD from childhood and then adult holidays with my (sadly) raging Borderline mother. But of course there is simply my own brain at work now. I feel absolutely TRAPPED, anxious, impatient, unworthy, sad, and hopeless. I want to run away with my pets and be alone. Does anyone else experience worsened depression this time of year? how do you manage? Thank you for reading. I wish all of you safety and love.