So my great aunt died three days ago and I'm not sad about it. I saw her a lot and thought she was cool and everything but I guess I just don't really care as much as everyone else. Maybe I just never really felt close to anyone because someone else I knew died in the past too. Because I can't say that I have ever actually felt close to someone. Maybe it's not a bad thing. You know that I just don't seem to care. Maybe I'm just unaffected by death. I've been wondering that. I worried that the rest of my family members might be upset with me if they knew how I thought but maybe they wouldn't. So I don't know. Maybe I just never felt close enough to anyone to the point where I would need to grieve for thier death or maybe I'm just unaffected by death. But the question that has been going through my mind is do I really care about anyone at all? Will I ever truly care about anyone? I just wonder if I'll ever feel that level of closeness to someone and I wonder if I'm a terrible person for not caring enough for other people.