I feel kind of sick this morning. How did I manage to ruin a perfectly good (at least I thought so) therapeutic relationship? I really don't know which aspect of my personality is "the ruiner". Did I really deserve that email? One of my identified problems is feeling like I have to keep my feelings to myself, and I thought he'd reassured me that I could share my feelings. Apparently I was right all along. If you're hurt, better keep that **** to yourself. Was the feeling itself wrong? I was looking forward to seeing him today. Is it wrong to feel hurt that he cancelled? I didn't take it as a personal affront, but it still hurt. I took the defensive email as a personal affront. I want to go back and reread what I said to him to get that kind of response, but I don't even want to look at that correspondence at all.