We can't rely on others for all our needs. Thats why I come here, to hear other people with similar issues. We understand how it feels to be dominated. I think it's good to vent out your frustrations. Maybe the pain will never go away, but I can be comfortable at times.

I'm sorry your feelings are being ignored. That IS a lonely place to be. It's hard to keep moving forward when you are exhausted from trying, failing, hurting, numbing, and just waking up sometimes. Maybe do something for yourself today, even if it's just walk outside and look at the sky and breathe in fresh air and go back inside. But don't tell anyone. Just do it for you.