Here I am getting up late, with almost all the morning gone. I walked the dog at 12 AM, and stayed up to 3:30 AM last night. I have been having more of those nights lately. How can I have the energy to stay up that late, but earlier in the day, have no energy to accomplish anything? That "paralysis" again and the anguish it brings to me, struggling to do what I need to do, really easy things to do.

Time for me to have the cat chased around the house. I used to be the one getting this exercise. Now my puppy does it for me, and does a better job at it too.

Update:

I forgot to say that I may have a new comorbid diagnosis of ADD. This one came as a surprise to me. Many of the symptoms were always there, but not in a way that would convince me that I actually have it. I though it may have been part of having BP. I also forgot to mention that some time ago my official diagnosis has changed from BP NOS to BP I. Apparently, only one truly manic episode in ones life qualifies for BP I. Many years ago, I think I had at least a couple.