Therapist was initially going to be gone this week. Then he said he might work one day this week. He sent an email yesterday and we scheduled for tomorrow. He emails me tonight that he's about a 3 hour drive away and although he was planning on driving back tomorrow to work a day, they're predicting snow where he is and only 3 clients wanted to meet so he's now not coming. He asked if I wanted a call. I was having some feelings and responded that I didn't want a call, that the timing was poor because it's hard to work through whatever's gone wrong in my head re: our relationship when he's not here (he cancelled once last week after some rupturey stuff recently) and that although I was hurt, I sincerely hoped he had a good holiday week.

He responds that he's feeling defensive, that I have no basis for feeling hurt, he's gone above and beyond what a therapist should be expected to do for a client, that he was primarily coming back to town because of me because we only met twice last week and he knows that is hard for me. He claims, despite saying all this, that he's not mad at me. I'm having trouble believing that claim. I'm having trouble with a lot of what he said. I never would have asked or expected him to drive back to town to meet with me this week. I told him it would have been easier for him to just say he was taking the week off than schedule something and be flaky (his words). He sounds completely fed up with me, which is something I've been fearing for a long time. He also said this: "So I am suggesting that instead of being hurt and pulling away, why not accept the support I’m offering and talk to me tomorrow?" That sounds reasonable, but I'm not particularly feeling like talking on the phone with him at this point. If I refuse a phone call, I'm being unreasonable or something. I have no idea what to do at this point.