I was just thinking and realized a lot (if not all) of the time I do or want to/think about doing things more to impress, or make others proud of me, rather than for my own personal benefit and improvements. For example, if I think about going back to school, and having a successful career, the only (or at least primary) reason and motivation behind doing so is to impress my family/friends (primarily my father) and make them proud of me, rather than to better myself or for my own personal improvement.

So I'm just hoping to get some advice or input on how I can change this, and do/want to do things with my life for myself, as I can imagine that doing things for my own benefit/improvement rather than to just impress or make others proud of me would yield a lot better results.