I must've been hypomanic for awhile now without realizing it, and now I'm feeling pretty bad. Just spent like the past 20 mins crying about stupid s*** that shouldn't even matter. Even worse, this is all my fault. 100% my fault. I feel this way because I wasn't consistent on my meds. I wasn't purposely trying to skip them, though. Not this time. I've been pretty much taking them every other day or every few days.


Honestly, I'm just stressed out from working all the time, and my sleeping schedule is totally screwed up to the point I'm sleeping at random hours and not even taking my meds at proper times. I've tried setting alarms on my phone to take the meds at a consistent time everyday, but I'm just going to buy an actual alarm clock tomorrow at Wal-Mart. F*** it. This entire week, my phone has either shutoff on me (not from a drained battery, but just randomly shut off) or the alarm apps are crashing. I've tried multiple alarm apps, and for some reason, they all crash on my phone. I don't know if it's the latest iPhone update or what, but they seem to crash whenever my phone decides it doesn't want to randomly shut off. "App unexpectedly closed." That's what I see on my screen instead of showing the alarm go off. And the phone isn't old. It's an iPhone XS that I got shortly before the iPhone 11 came out.


Whatever. I'm just feeling particularly bad... I just hope this passes soon because I'm at my breaking point. I'm stressed out so much from work. Thanksgiving can't come sooner, can it?