@Tucson: I also struggle with simple stuff that should be easy. My floors are overdue for a sweep and mop. I paid $7K for beautiful new flooring just a few years ago and i can't even manage to keep it clean! I feel like such a loser. Laundry is piled up. At least my kitchen is clean. I'm also not active with my pet anymore. I take her to a dogpark and let her run loose. She's happy tho. I'm sliding into sleeping-in again also. One year it got so bad that i was going to bed at dawn and getting up at 4:00pm. It's too late at that time to do any business calls, the few that i need to do so it was a big bummer and everything just slid. All this to say: you're not alone.

I got in a vicious mood earlier, throwing things and wanting to smash things and finally fled to the mall where i had a nice time. The Christmas decorations are up and the garish Disney theme has been replaced this year with a cozy country Christmas theme, with burlap and rough-hewn fences. It's quite pretty. Had to laugh at the attempt at a virtual fireplace tho in Santa's castle: it keep flaking out and saying "loading, loading, loading." Sometimes technology is so lame!

I guess i just spent too many days in a row at home. My left hip socket hurts from the gentle elliptical workouts i did last week so i don't know what the future holds for that. I'm having trouble sitting down and getting up. I love workingout but i suffer so much after i'm not sure it's worth it. Maybe just wandering around the mall is all i can do. But the elliptical is so FUN!!! And i love our pretty gym here in the building . . . . ( @fern46: I know you're going to point out chair aerobics and i haven't forgotten, just want something to do in the gym. I am capable of solving my own problems, rest assured.)

Considered going to Overeaters Anonymous (OA) in the West end of the city tomorrow but have mostly abandoned that plan as it would be an hour on public transit each way and i'm not up to making a three hour commitment. If i still want to go later in the week there is a group on Friday that's easier to get to and just a $12 cab ride home if i can't face public transit after.

Feeling discouraged at the grim start to the day and doubt there's anything good to look forward to with Winter coming on and my depression just getting more intense.