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Originally Posted by Tucson
Here I am getting up late, with almost all the morning gone. I walked the dog at 12 AM, and stayed up to 3:30 AM last night. I have been having more of those nights lately. How can I have the energy to stay up that late, but earlier in the day, have no energy to accomplish anything? That "paralysis" again and the anguish it brings to me, struggling to do what I need to do, really easy things to do.
Time for me to have the cat chased around the house. I used to be the one getting this exercise. Now my puppy does it for me, and does a better job at it too. 
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I forgot to say that I may have a new comorbid diagnosis of ADD. This one came as a surprise to me. Many of the symptoms were always there, but not in a way that would convince me that I actually have it. I though it may have been part of having BP. I also forgot to mention that some time ago my official diagnosis has changed from BP NOS to BP I. Apparently, only one truly manic episode in ones life qualifies for BP I. Many years ago, I think I had at least a couple. |
Ahh the stay up late energy vs and low energy morning well I can certainly yap about that lol
I have always even as a child just truly feel better as a night owl it’s dark, quiet, peaceful. It’s my favorite time. I always feel the most energy then, I have no problems cleaning house doing laundry or pre cooking meals to freeze for another time at 3 am ! My husband doesn’t mind.
But for decades I worked for Doctors and of course most days were 7am starts. I did it , I didn’t like it at all , but it was necessary to pay my bills and raise my daughter.
The weekend would arrive I’d stay up til almost dawn before falling asleep , my daughter about age 6-7 started staying up late on the weekends with me , like me she would get up all week early for school because she had too , as she grew older she was more and more like me , super night owls we were! It didn’t hurt anything. Age 19 she was diagnosed BP so .... she now works a job 6am-3pm M-F lol .. Friday night she’s awake enjoying the quiet.
If I HAVE to get up and moving I can. Numerous Doctors I have are 1.5 hours North and I’ll have a 730-800am appt so I can do it , I just don’t like it.
Sleep hygiene is important for Bipolar. Yes studies show set bedtime and wake times help with stability
My T and I have spent a lot of time on this topic. Since I truly feel better at night I enjoy it... I’m not going to make myself go lay in bed at stare at the wall for hours because it’s 10-11 pm and it be an “acceptable “ bedtime.
On average I’ll be in bed reading 2-3 am maybe I’ll dose off 5 or 6 ( if I’m lucky) I might sleep for a few hours but I do not get out of bed until “””””I feel like it “””” or my Dogs need to go out or maybe no sleep at all, my chronic insomnia plays a part.
Yes ! one Manic episode you get the nifty number 1 for life, I call it my gold star lol
ADD? Do you think trying treatment for that will help you improve your quality of life ?? Do you feel bad about yourself because you don’t have energy ? Do you think it’s “ wrong” to stay up late ? As a child my Mom would explode if she caught me reading in the middle of the night. I just got smarter at not letting her catch me. But she really made me feel ashamed. So terrible my mother was at times.
All those “ easy things” you need to do ? ... maybe try doing them at night when you do have energy???
Not everyone is meant to punch that 9-5 get up early kinda life, I know I’m not and I’m perfectly okay with if , I have no problem enjoying of the middle of the night calm !
Huge hugs my friend
