First of all, thank you all for your answers. Much appreciated. I am not seeing anyone and have never done that in the past either. I will probably go to someone to get this straight. I have for a few days now examined the way I act and speak to others and it really makes me jump how I keep on questioneing peoples loyalties all the time. I keep interpreting so many things as bad. Dont understand how people have been able to put up with me . I am however determined to improve my behaviour and mental state and hope to find support here and perhaps other people who is going through the same thing.

Love P