I've been avoidant for years, getting worse
I've been almost completely isolated in bed in the last three months because I feel very tired and felt the need to rest in fetal position forgetting what happened and dreaming of a different reality
I know this is egoistic and gross to say. I'm lucky enough to have a house but I see even this house should be left to someone else, someone who wants to live and deserve a roof on the heas more than me

I feel guilty when I have bad thoughts and want to disappear
I think: who's gonna take care of the world if I stop doing it?

I worry especially about animals and children, suffering creatures in general
Abused people

Are out there enough good people?
Some adults are so childish in a bad way... they behave like bullies -_- So many of them

I'm really tired this time, I wish I could go without feeling a s....

Sorry for this post