It's the last day of the workweek. I'm looking forward to 4 days off but I'm hoping my depression doesn't take more of a dive. I don't want to end up at the ER or worse yet hospitalized over Thanksgiving. I'm hoping the time off of work will be more restorative than anything. Thanksgiving Day itself should be fine. Just me and mom and dad, and the dog and kitties of course. The other days there are some activities planned. I don't want to be too busy but I also want to get things done. I got the bills paid at work early today so that was my big project for the day. Not enough $$ and always too many bills. It's my least enjoyable task. I see T tonight. I hope I can tell her about being suicidal and stuff like that. I haven't SH-ed which is good, I guess. And I did reach out last night to two friends again via text and one friend in person. So I'm really trying to connect with people right now. And this morning I told a coworker that I was struggling, but also that I'm doing everything in my power to be okay. I think I might be getting sick though too. I had a cough this morning, my head is kind of achy and my throat is between scratchy and sore. I hope I'm not getting sick. I did talk my parents into going to see Frozen 2 on Sunday (it helped that I bought the tickets) so that will be good. I'm just so tired of fighting all these thoughts in my head and fighting these feelings. I just really want a break. I hope this weekend provides the break I need. HUGS to all, Kit