It's the same crap all over again, just like the first time I ever tried to fix this crap.

Call for appointments. They're booked for 6 weeks, 2 months, oh there's a waiting list there 'might' be an opening next year.

I wait so long that something that WAS NOT a crisis situation, now IS. If they could have just f#(%*#&ing helped me when I first called them, I'd be getting better by now. But no.

And if I tell them the truth, that I'm nearly suicidal, all they'll do is lock me up for a few days. I'll lose my job, everyone will know I'm crazy...and they STILL WON'T HELP ME.

I just went to the county walk-in mental health clinic. They have walk-in hours from 1-3 weekdays. So I went. I told them that yes, I did get a therapist, but he doesn't prescribe medication, he's on vacation, I'm not doing so well, my OB doc who was going to do the meds side is all booked up for a few weeks, and I just really need to start something NOW so maybe it can start working in a few weeks...rather than waiting another few weeks just to start it.

Well guess what. They won't help me either. Have to go thru a long drawn out process, and even then - they said their pdoc's that can prescribe are all booked up for several weeks.

AAAARRRRGGGHHH

I am ready to scream and cry at the same time. Why is it so hard??

If you have a broken arm, you go to the doctor, they fix it. End of story. Why, then, when your brain is broken, do they make you wait 2 months just to get an appointment, and then tell you to fix it yourself?

Why can't I just say "I NEED HELP" and f*#()(ing GET some help????

Is this just me? What the heck am I doing wrong?