another insightful session. Fear stops me, and the fear of losing my mom from childhood was the trigger, or one of them. My mom had a miscarriage after she had me, and my family could have lost her. I think that remembering that has sparked something inside me.

I actually sat and did things. I worked in a Christmas present, and practiced for for a few performances that I have coming up. But my mood dropped again. I am living in fear, and it sucks.