I am here and alive. I am listening to my music, which is turning out to be like a marathon listening session that has started several days ago. Must be my OCD. I need to clean up the kitchen, pay a couple bills, and get my car washed and detailed. I think I can handle most of this today. I need to get my car looking good before I drive for Uber. I hope to apply by this weekend.


My memory has been improving over the latter part of this year. I am continuing to remember things that I have forgotten for most of my life. I do not know what is going on here. I was reading an article that mentioned the word "ammonia". The chemical formula for it flashed into my head as NH3. It is actually NH4, but close enough. Now where did I get this bit of information from? Not from any chemistry class. I then remember that a great many years ago, on one day, I looked up the formula to many common everyday products, likely including ammonia. I remember this by the feeling it gave me learning about this stuff that I have dealt with all my life.


I do not know what is going on here, but I am quite happy about this. Now if I can be more present to what is going on around me, I will be happier still. Add to this the working myself out of this "paralysis" I place myself into during the day. Could this improvement be due to my current meds? Maybe it takes some time for the mind to stabilize as to this being a delayed effect that develops over time. I have been for the most part stable, with some periodic mild lifting or depression of mood. I do have a continuing problem with energy levels, and their irregular swings. I have more energy than usual, stay up most of the night, then have low energy for most of the day. I need to keep more regular hours of sleep. This may help.