I don't know unaluna. I don't make enough money to live by myself, and my parents help me a lot with the autism stuff, but they suck at the depression, psychosis, and self harm stuff. They arent really.....caring, even though I know they care. But I can be in the same room with them and feel so alone because they don't understand me. But I've been dealing with depression since I was 9 years old and I'm not better yet. My T keeps asking me what I want from my life. I'm thinking she wants something other than "survive" but I really don't know. So much of my energy goes into survival. Trigger for Christianity I wish I did have some answers. My T said tonight that we would find them. That they are inside of me. We just need to open the right window. Not really sure what she was talking about but okay....I will go for it. Hugs Kit