It is officially the 1 year anniversary of T told me to let myself have all the feelings I need to about today and let myself cry if I need to. I hate the coincidence that it falls on Thanksgiving this year. I hate that my son has the flu on Thanksgiving and is going to have to miss out. I'm going to stay home with him and put up the tree while H takes the other kids to his parents. Then we're going to switch off so I can go see my parents. It's already a very hard day and it's barely after midnight. I also think that