Hey, I am sorry you are having a hard time.

I hope I don't upset you by saying this....but if you are truely suicidal, you need to goto a hospital. Not everyone will know, and at worse they usually only hold people 1-2 weeks until they stabilize them. You will get treated and they will also FIND and SCHEDULE appointments for you with other people when you are released.

People here say bad things about hospitals and they have never been there...they are afraid. The truth is, if you are in crisis the hospital can help. They are not bad and mostly are helpful.

Just my 2 cents.....