Anyone feel they've unintentionally pushed people away during mania or mixed episodes? I think about strange or grandiose ideas I've had and how paranoid thinking during episodes possibly caused some people to back off. I look back at my conversations with them, and they must have felt uncomfortable/did not know how to respond. So some people distance themselves.

I am sensitive when it comes to people abandoning me, based on my history. What would be a way of handling the embarrassment? Also, there is one friend in particular that I am afraid that I scared off. I was not rude to her in any way, but she must have been affected by the negative energy that was surrounding me during my last episode. I am still having some residual paranoid thoughts from the mixed episode, and I am very depressed. But at least I am not full-blown delusional anymore. Any thoughts, advice, or can relate in any way?