Thanks to my BPD I have:

**Been abandoned by three "best" friends, with the last one promising over and over again over a number of years that he "understood" my problem and would never abandon me.

**Moved over 2,500 miles in an effort to escape. Of course, it didn't work.

**Almost lost a job. I didn't, but I was never really trusted again and was replaced in the job I was doing and placed in a much worse situation.

**Was almost arrested when my abandonment #2 called the police when I wouldn't leave his house when he told me to.

**Have no friends. I tend to shut them out before they get too close and have the chance to hurt me, but it leaves me very alone.

I know no one can help me, but I'm feeling very sorry for myself and I guess I want some understanding. The last abandonment just happened and I'm in so much pain. I've tried everything I can think of, and I can't get rid of the pain. Please just understand.