I'm right there with you, Raven. I've felt searing embarrassment after mania. I get so over-the-top and grandiose and unrealistic and inappropriate. I usually just suffer my shame in silence. The one time i confronted someone about a particularly shameful action she said to just get over it. She was willing to get past it but i couldn't. I don't know how to forgive myself and move on. So i feel your pain but can't shed any light on the subject.