Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends.

Yesterday was bad. Panic and SI were extreme. I contacted my pdoc but he was off work as his son was sick. Contacted my T who was having a very busy day. He gave me some advice then later suggested I go to ER. I can’t face hospital right now. Complicated reasons. I knew I was in trouble so I bombed out on Seroquel and fell asleep.

This morning I feel less panicked, but still very off. I have a big family gathering to go to tomorrow. With this anxiety I don’t know if I will cope. There are people I would love to see there. Just others trigger me. My T doesn’t want me to go, or at the most make a flying visit. It is an hours drive. The other side of the city. I guess I will decide tomorrow.

Something still doesn’t feel right. I don’t know what to do.