doc john had a blog entry on how hospital can be a place that isn't terribly helpful for people who are suicidal.

er... just wondering... has anyone considered borderline personality / rapid cycling bi-polar? just wondering because the distress seems to be intense emotion rather than a flattening / loss of them. sometimes hospital staff can be rather unsympathetic to people who express INTENSE distress... unfortunate... but thats the way things are sometimes.

are you trying to do little things to nurture and care for youself? some nice self talk and some inner hugs? bubble baths and reading novels and going for nice walks etc? hang in there... this too shall pass.