Welcome to PC, Return. I'm glad you're here, and I hope you look around on some of the boards and such. What you've described could be OCD...but there also might be something else going on. Whatever the case, the behaviors you feel compelled to act on sound frustrating, for sure. I hate the idea that you will live the rest of your life with such challenges.
Have you ever consulted a mental health professional?
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