I am currently finding the only way I can prevent being overwhelmed and my adult self stay in control and communicate is to be emotionally cut off. This means i can describe feelings and be coherent but I am not sure how much I am really sharing if other parts of me aren't expressing themselves in therapy. It also doesn't feel like something I can control. As soon as I entre its like i become this reasoned adult that can articularly explain things when the week leading up to that session is usually me having emoitional flashbacks being socially anxious and not in tune with myself at all. This isn't something I am used to. The thing is I write down the things iwant to mention each week and i shre them and i get some thoughts i haven't considered but there is just something missing.