Unfortunately finding a T can be difficult especially one so close, you will likely have to really expand your search out.

Please please do stop drinking alcohol, it truly makes things worse. There is also a very big risk of taking a Benzo and drinking, far to many have lost there life accidentally mixing them.

Drinking calming tea, soothing music , mediation and mindfulness need to be going 24/7, just keep throwing coping skills at it until something sticks.

I’m sorry things are so tough right now, yes posting helps ... so keep sharing how your feeling. I’m around if you need anything

Remember to breath