Your inner being wants something that the people around you are resisting. I think we both came to PC because we are searching for answers. Do whatever makes you feel good. Politely retreat from people who don't make you feel good--don't ever believe others "less than" messages. You deserve to be happy. You are a good person so the things that make you feel good make the world a positive place. Never apologize for being you. You are here for a reason. You are perfect the way you are. This video may seem strange but it does resonate with me:

Abraham Hicks 2019 ~ You can't serve two masters, pick one and let it be your inner being